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11 February 2007 @ 09:19 am
her eyes are nervous and bright like neurotic goldfish  
being unemployed means living in a lack of structured time. sometimes i sleep from 10am to 3pm and i'm good, and then i'll find myself gritting my teeth towards my ineffectual, oblivious mind later that day/next morning; it's 6am and this means nothing to the switch in my brain that is supposed to shut OFF sometime when it is dark out.
here i am at 8:04am sunday morning, and this may not be shocking to some, but i've also been up since 5am.
to make something more structured and help my own mind avoid total slippery-schizo-screaming destruction, i've compiled a list of quote-worthy quotes that mean something, something firm and curling in the certainties of black font. as certain as the coffee dribbling down my chin and cookies for breakfast.

if you want your dreams to come true, don't sleep.--yiddish proverb

love is like war: easy to begin but very hard to stop.---H.L.Mencken

her clothes have no buttons. there are two missing from my jacket. this lady and i are almost of the same religion.--Guillaume Apollinaire

kilgore trout once wrote a short story which was a dialogue between two pieces of yeast. they were discussing the possible purposes of life as they ate sugar and suffocated in their own excrement. because of their limited intelligence, they never came close to guessing they were made of champagne.--kurt vonnegut

it was an unspoken pleasure that having...ruined so much and repaired little, we had endured.--lillian hellman

find a job you like and you add five days to your week.--H.jackson brown jr.

the human imagination...has great difficulty in livng strictly within the confines of a materialist practice or philosophy. it dreams, like a dog in its basket, of hares in the open.--john berger

and suddenly i understood; everything became extraordinarily clear and simple. everything: life and death, the meaning of existence. and even stronger than this revelation was my surprise: how had no one on earth yet understood this thing, so extraordinarily simple? i had a feeling that a message had been transmitted to me, that i should remember, so as to be able to communicate it ot men. i woke up...with this idea in mind: not to forget what i had seen. a second later, i forgot.---mircea eliade

the hardest learned lesson: that people only have their kind of love to give, not our kind.--mignon McLaughlin

i believe in the incomprehensibility of god.--honore de balzac

i daresay anything can be made holy by being sincerely worshiped.--iris murdock

now we will count to twelve and we will all keep still for once on the face of the earth, let's not speak in any language; let's stop for a second, and not move our arms so much.--pablo neruda

the universe is like a safe to which there is a combination. but the combination is locked in the safe.--peter de vries

the idea that nations should love one another, or that business concerns or marketing boards should love one another,or that a man in Portugal should love a man in Peru of whom he has never heard--it is absurd, unreal, dangerous...the fact is we can only love what we know personally. and we cannot know much.--E.M. Forster

we only begin to live when we conceive life as a tragedy...--W.B.Yeats

hold on to the now, the here, through which all the future plunges to the past...--james joyce

i can only lean enviously against the boundary and hate, hate, hate the boys who can dispel sexual hunger freely, without misgiving, and be whole, while i drag out from date to date in soggy desire, always unfulfilled.--sylvia plath

so this is what we have to learn to be part of a community; to respond blindly to electric sirens shrilling in the middle of the night. i hate it--sylvia plath

for the average man, the world is weird because if he's not bored with it, he's at odds with it. for a warrior, the world is weird because it is stupendous, awesome, mysterious, unfathomable. a warrior must assume responsibility for being here, in this marvelous world, in this marvelous time.--carlos casteneda

avoid safety. the very word has a mean sound. --constance wagner

live to the point of tears.--albert camus

a man who looks for security, even in the mind, is like a man who would chop off his limbs in order to have artificial ones which will give him no pain or trouble.--henry miller

always do sober what you said you'd do drunk. that'll teach you to keep your mouth shut.--earnest hemingway

i can't deceive myself out of the bare stark realization that no matter how enthusiastic you are, no matter how sure that character is fate, nothing is real, past or future, when you are alone in your room with the clock ticking loudly into the false cheerful brilliance of the electric light.--sylvia plath

empty rooms would yawn mocking at me from every side. God, life is loneliness, despite all the opiates, despite the shrill tinsel gaity of parties with no purpose despite the false grinning faces we all wear...yes, there is joy, fulfillment and companionship--but the loneliness of the soul ini ts appalling self-consiousness, is horrible and overpowering.
--and to think: i am but one more drop in the great sea of matter, defined , with the ability to realize my own existence--sylvia plath

i was walking across a bridge one day, and i saw a man standing on the edge,about to jump off. so i ran over, and said, "stop! don't do it!..there's so much to live for!" he said, "like what?" i said, "well, are you religious or atheist?" he said, "religious." i said, "me too! are you christian or buddhist?" he said, "christian." "Me too! are you catholic or protestant?" he said, "protestant." i said, "me too! are you episcopalian or baptist?" he said, "baptist." i said, "wow! me too! are you baptist church of god or baptist church of the lord?" he said, "baptist church of god." i said, "me too! are you original baptist church of god, or reformed baptist church of god?" he said, "reformed baptist church of god." i said, "me too! are you reformed baptist church of god, reformation of 1879, or reformed baptist church of god, reformation of 1915?" he said, " reformed baptist church of god, reformation of 1915." i said, "die, heretic scum." and pushed him off.---emo phillips